Family Update

To update those of you who I don't talk to daily, Maddie is no longer with us. To make a very long and painful story as to the point as it can be.....her mother moved to another county and they are transferring Madison there. I have had a very difficult 2 weeks and I hope that everyone will keep me in their prayers. I always knew that I would get kids and that they would go, but these circumstances made it very difficult to accept. Morgan has now named her doll that she has always called baby Maddie and she says at least once a day that the police came to get Maddie......which by the way they didn't. I have to reassure her that they didn't and that Madison is safe with people who love her.

On another note I think that everyone is starting to see some of the things that I have been telling them about Morgan and now in addition to her once a week therapy session she is going to have additional in home play therapy every week when they find someone to do it. They are looking into raising her level of care and I it is doubtful that they will place another child in my home with Morgan here.

So, forgive me for my absence but a lot has been going on. Please keep me and Morgan in your prayers and also remember Maddie as I know that she will forever be in mine.

Maddie's Discovery

In the last few weeks Madison has discovered her toes. She loves them and loves to feast on them. I took these a few nights ago after her bath. She loves to lay with no clothes on!

Hey, Look what I found!

No one told me about these things. I have been missing out! Toys that travel everywhere with me....who knew?!?! And so tasty too!

After a while she gets bored of the effort it takes and decides just to chew on a finger instead. It is much less work!

I took Madison to the Pediatric Gastrologist and he ordered her an upper GI to be done on Monday afternoon. She threw up all over his office and he just couldn't believe that she throws up like that constantly....I believe his exact wording was...."That's impressive!" I was like yeah tell me about it! I am hopeful that we will find out what is wrong with her so that we can get it fixed. I worry so much that she isn't getting the nutrition that she needs. He couldn't believe that she threw up solids too. And just in case you are wondering it has taken me like an hour to write this blog because I have had to change me and her three times in an hour! Thank goodness for onesies!!!!!!

Drowsy Bubbles???

Who knew 6 months ago that this little girl would love the water so much?!?!?! Morgan was rather wild Tuesday night after her counseling session so I put some of the Johnson's Lavender Bath in her bath water in hopes of calming her down. I usually only use this for Maddie as it was recommended by her dr. So I had no clue that when put it in a whole tub it would make bubbles. Morgan didn't know what to think about them at first but she figured it out pretty quickly!

She started off a little tame....

She thought that that was hilarious so she got a little braver.....

Then I had to calm her down a little cause she was going nuts with it. It was even in her eyes!

So much for the calming aroma of lavender!!!!!! It definitely did nothing to make this little one drowsy, or tired, or CALM....

Could I BE any dirtier?!?!

Ok girls....I have hit a blogger rut....and I never have time to take any pictures it seems! So, today when I picked Morgan up at her visit I thought.....I HAVE to take pictures of this!!!! I am not going to name any names but this is for those of you who just don't understand why I can't go anywhere after a visit......

Exhibit A

Now, I am going to let the small fact that her clothes don't match pass, so she really doesn't look that bad....right???? Lets get a closer look.....

Exhibit B

Obviously they have used her for a personal drawing board right??? And that is marker on her face too....if you were wondering! I guess it still isn't that bad, right?

Exhibit C

See the marker on the sides of her hands and all up her arms??? Well let me just assure you that these pictures don't do the havoc justice! On top of all of this her hair looked like she had jumped in a swimming pool! In all honesty this is a far cry from the worst. Lets see if I can think back....2 weeks ago she came home in a pair of jean overalls in the 90 degree heat. AND they were a size 24 months, but the best part has got to be that the shirt was a 12 months!!!! I thought that I was going to have to cut it off her! Ummmmm, is anyone forgetting that Morgan is 3!!!!! ERGH! Last Friday she came home in a get-up that can best be summed up by Morgan's parent aide who said that I needed to take her home and change her that she looked like "an 80's street walker." MY POOR, POOR baby!!!!! I think that her mom gets pride in seeing just how far back she can take her to looking like the homeless, dirty little girl that they brought to my house 6 months ago. She does a pretty good job. You would think that she would like Morgan looking all cute and neat..not so much! To top it all off, Morgan hates it. She gets in the car and starts "I want it off" talking about the marker. She now says, "My other Mommy draw on me."

I guess that I just needed to rant about her in some form because she (Morgan's birth mother) did something unspeakable last week that will affect me for a long time. I can't really tell anyone what it was but imagine the worst thing...and then multiply it by 5....or maybe 10! I'll let your imagination run with you....

In other news Maddie went for her check-up last Thursday and she weighs 13lbs 5ozs now. I have to take her to a Ped's Gastro Dr tomorrow in Atlanta. I am not looking forward to that!

So, I will ask you girls to keep me in your prayers. I am seriously thinking that these might be my last kids. I won't give them back and will ride it out, but I don't know if I can do it all over again at this point. It is something that I will have to think long and hard about.